Monday, May 19, 2025

Minutiae

in one liminal patch

I find Morchella americana

twenty-two morels

such labyrinthine folds

& Arisaema triphyllum

a jack-in-the-pulpit

its folded-over hood still

hiding its striped interior

they emerge beside

dread invasives — garlic

mustard, dame’s rocket —

the few greens I’m willing

to pull, as if I ruled

this wild, this woods rim

where I heap cat litter

& tissues & egg shells

heaps I hide under

wood chips gleaned

from trees I’ve downed

without me these

two acres would soon

carpet my house


Small Sounds from the Kitchen

I listen three nights

when a creature

not one of the three of us

prowls the dark

until one morning

a scratch, a scrape

becomes my cat

carrying a mouse

the tail dangles

a white neck shines

the cat trots outside

my other cat follows

the end is a different story


Sunday, April 13, 2025

Such Is

the burden of driving the hundred miles

to visit friends or family, to consult on a project 

— that length of time, those dangerous roads — 

so one stays home, looks out the same windows

onto the same trees, grass, driveway, road

yet what comfort the known brings, the one mug

filled with the favorite tea . . . I am most at risk

between five & seven am, the time when I wake

& make tea & read headlines reporting the latest

obscenities — South Carolina executes a man

by firing squad, Israel kills 87 Palestinians

our dumb fuck president spews nonsense

enables morons, deports & kills people — 

yet the day begins, I divert myself, Homer

diverts me, my ignorance consoles me


Thursday, February 13, 2025

1964

the morning after my high school graduation

a moving van pulls up out front

of our New Jersey house

                                             United! it proclaims

& while movers maneuver

the contents of our house down the walk

up the ramp into the dark tunnel

                                                         stacked with blankets

                                                         strung with belts

& while my mother supervises

the know-it-all yes’m no’m blue-jumpsuited crew


I assemble a collection

of what I might need for the rest of my life

                                                                           I’m seventeen

& I’m not moving to DC though she thinks I am

no, today is I win (& lose), game over

get out, get out for good

drive away in my two-door pale-blue Pontiac


                                                                               dressed in black

& strung with pearls, it takes her

six weeks to find me cleaning a toilet in a stranger’s house

no, I won’t come with you, won’t pretend

you have any hold over me, won’t endure

one more day of your husband’s (my father’s) 

drug- & drink-addled rage

                                             she drives off


I pass another night deep in the park, locked in my car


Monday, February 10, 2025

End Game

yes, we too suffer while we

watch & tend to the old & ill


tend them when they know

& we know it’s end game


they tremble, dribble, moan

embarrass & soil themselves


still, we don’t deliver the dose


are we making them pay

for what they’ve done to us?


only nature or some kinder god

grants them their release


later we advertise how long

we forced them to endure


Saturday, February 1, 2025

Paradiso Anagrams to Diaspora

I am in paradise

not banished but instead

where I would most wish to be


because of fragments

I live outside the outer world

inside my own world


though I don’t knit

I’m knitting . . . long ago I wove

my body my loom


Monday, January 27, 2025

Silk

the sussuration of S

iffiness of a short I

strength & resilience of an L

scissor snip of a K

silk blouses always

pretending to slide off my shoulders

silk blouses & trousers

I gave away

when I threw off the salaryman slog

& moved to Hawaii

off grid, forty acres of rainforest

rain, mud, feral pigs

rooting outside my windows

the four-thousand meters of silk

inside every silk moth cocoon


Tuesday, January 21, 2025

What It's Like to Fall @ 77 Years Old

I am hallucinating the out of doors

because I am inside until further notice

every window in my house brings me

light, bare trees, snow on the ground

indoors is this ugly aluminum walker

in my lap a book about taking the walks

Henry David Thoreau took . . . Cape Cod

Mt Katahdin, Mt Wachusett . . . nearly

two centuries ago people truly walked

New England out of doors was country

from here to there & yet a farther there

as far as one might walk in a day, a week

a month . . . one day I might be back up

on both of my feet & out of doors


Sunday, January 19, 2025

US Public High School, 2025

she tells me about a boy who comes to school

filthy — clothes, skin, hair — I mean filthy, she says

I wonder, does he never wash? has he no shower?

no parents? no home? what brings him to school

every day? he’s one of six students in her

“intervention” group, students who are behind

who do not learn, who cannot, she says, learn

the parts of speech, though all of them can speak

they know how to assemble verb, noun, adjective

so in fact they know parts of speech as a dog

knows a hydrant, a cat, its owner, without

giving names to any of them — a dirty silent

boy, who agrees to sit at the group table the day

another boy, the one who misbehaves, is absent


Tuesday, December 31, 2024

Air

each Palestinian child killed

is someone I will never know

& though you might say

I wouldn’t know them anyway

because before they’d have grown up

I’ll be dead, still, we might have exchanged

fleeting bursts of air, theirs

blown here from Rafah in Gaza, mine

flown there from Salisbury in Vermont

world travelers, sibling orphans

they bombed into fragments

or found frozen in rain-soaked tents

I shriveled inside worn garments

we who die in our killing times